web statistics

The Other Side of the Circle

Wednesday, June 28, 2006


Monday, June 26, 2006

New Problems, Old Tools

Friday, June 23, 2006

It's Everyone's Problem

Monday, June 05, 2006


Saturday, May 27, 2006

I am so glad to see summer !

Friday, May 26, 2006


My hands grip the wheel
The mirror reflects the gutted hopes
Of days gone by
The bleeding entrails and broken bodies
Scattered across the retreating road
Fasten the belt and hold tight to my hand
Let your trembling be stilled
As we drive past the vacant eyes
And death throes
Look only into my eyes
Where your fears are consumed

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

From My Journal-- May 28, 1989

It finally happened ! I gave birth to J on Thursday May 25, 1989 at 10:05 pm.

Thursday morning when I went for my appointment I was having regular contractions. They told me to go walk for a couple of hours and come back to be admitted. We got back to the hopstial at about 1:00pm. They hooked me up to the monitors and did an exam. I was at 2 cm and very thin. At 2:45 they broke my water and hooked up internal monitors. I didn't start having hard contractions until after five. Boy were they hard then ! I thought I would die. The nurse really helped me. Father was either watching TV or out smoking a cigarette most of the time. He kept badgering me to get an epidural. I had some Newbane when I was at about 3 cm. I was finally going to let them put in the epidural but I was already at 7 cm so I just got some more IV painkiller. Not very long after that I was ready to push. I was at 9 cm. About 30 minutes later I had her. Pushing was the easiest part. Bult labor wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. Father was so upset because he wasn't much help until it was time to push. Another thing was there were lots of people there and I was forced to try to be sociable when I was in pain. Not next time. [9 visitors mentioned] She's a perfect baby except for a partial cleft lip. We were a little disappointed but I think she's the most wonderful thing... She was 7'5" and 19 1/2 inches long... She has black hair and her eyes are blue right now... I'm really sore and tired and I certainly didn't expect to bleed so much. I have lots of cramps especially when I nurse...